sunstruck88

So today I woke up grumpy. Usually this results in a dark and moody grumpy day (not just a grumpy morning). So naturally, expecting this, I became even grumpier. But! Things turned around. I mean how many signs did I need to be sent for me to see it was a good day? So I know I had planned out all these things to do, to achieve inspiration. I am still getting in the rhythm of things. Routines do not work out for me. I have tried meditation here and there, certain mornings. I did not do it today though, because I felt too grumpy for self actualization and positive thinking. I will try at it more though, because for every meditation session I

Last entry I talked about seeking inspiration. I think the best way to do that is to try out new things. About two weeks ago I started bike riding along some trails near my house. I would stop in the middle of my treck and sit on a bench,breathing deeply while watching a family of ducks mingle on the lake in front of me. It was peaceful. It cleared my mind. I have a hard time clearing my mind. It is always thinking, thinking, BURSTING with thought, questions, goals, anxieties. So when I found a way to energize myself, to relax, I was peacefully inspired. Unfortunatly a week later the June bugs came. They come every year and stay for about a

The past winter was dark. It felt dark. Heavy. Inexcapable. And I was STILL (oh still) searching. Searching for what? Light...maybe. Something good. Inspiration!!! Awe!!! It is a search for a feeling. I can compare it to searching for something you experience that is new and exciting. It's that tourist feeling of amazement when you find yourself at a renown landmark or a breathtaking site. Is it even possible to constantly feel inspired? Probably not. But then again, if you can feel down for a long period of time, why not be able to feel high (without any drug ingestion-of course). Hmm. As the days grew longer, I found satisfaction. Here w